Tested Faith

I have been prepared emotionally, and spiritually for this new trail.  I have not however,  done so well in preparing financially.  I have been let go, laid-off, dismissed from my job.  This wasn't a surprise as I sensed it was coming for some time.  The signs were all there: the resume that appeared in the admin folder, my supervisor, (who never spoke much to me anyway), really limited her contact and communication with me, and most importantly, God spoke to me.  So it was no surprise when one of the company owners, (with whom I have Never had any interaction other than a brief "hello" in passing), asked me to come to his office with my supervisor in tow.  I was basically reminded of how my employment is "at will" meaning I can be let go at any time for any to no reason at all and that I wasn't a fit therefore they were letting me go.  My supervisor sat there and said nothing to me barley looking at me.  After the 'meeting" she went to her office and closed the door.  It didn't take much for me to pack because the Lord had told me the previous week to take as much as I could with me as I left.  I had saved all my work to my flash drive so the only things left were my binder, and my four dishes.  I handed over the office keys and walked out into the dreary rainy day to my freedom.   

In addition to being Freed from that God-less place, I had used a HUGE chunk of my savings to get my car fixed.  For some, being laid off amidst a government shut down and nearly depleting their savings, this would be devastating.  For me, I'm smiling.  I have this great expectation of how God is going to move, and the door(s) He is going to swing wide open for me.  I have full fledged Faith that He will provide for me during this time.  That He will surround me with people who love Him, know Him and will pray on my behalf.

As I move into this transitional stage of my life, I am faithful in my Lord that He will do magnificent things in my life.  I know this is a trial of how I will stay in His word during this time and how I trust in Him to keep, provide, and use me for His glory.  I am excited about this time.  Not sure how else to feel, or react because this is the first time I have ever been laid off, and the first time since college that I do not have a financial cushion.  A financial cushion is what makes me feel comfortable in knowing if anything came up, I can just move money around and take care of it.  This is a first for me.  This will truly test my faith, and open my eyes to how I need to readjust my spending habits once again.    Scripture says in Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.  In Isaiah 46:4 Even to your old age, I am He, And even to gray hairs I will carry you! I have made, and I will bear; Even I will carry, and will deliver you. 

In this trial, in this season, there is no choice for me to other than to trust in Him, and keep my Faith in Him not in man.  His word says that things that are impossible with men, are possible with God - Luke 18:27.

"Faith is seeing the invisible, believing in the unbelievable, and receiving the impossible"

Nikki J.